NEVER backing down, NEVER quitting

i screwed up 20 years of my life i’m not going to screw up my 21st.

So on the night before I have a huge homework assignment due, I wasted the whole day and right when I was about to start up on my hw, I stumbled upon my old xanga blogs. My very first blux15, the one after that, and the one me and my ex made together. I started thinking about who I was before and who I am now, and I’ve realized I’ve come a long way from who I used to be… And instead of feeling hurt and pain from remembering the infamous “break-up,” it only just made me feel more motivated in doing better than who I was before. Hopefully this is a season for me to change and have my relationship w/ God grow deeper. But I don’t know… everythign is so confusing I do not know what to expect or what to think.

Anyways. All this may be bullshit cause I didn’t get any sleep from finishing up my hw and then i have class at 10… so I could be going crazy due to the lack of sleep. <shrug>

go figure.

“We often try to cup God into our hands, but when will we let God cup us into His hands?” – unknown (saw this in one of my old bluxanga posts… thought this was interesting)