NEVER backing down, NEVER quitting

i can’t shake this feeling off of me. wtff…

but he said to me, “my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” therefore, i will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that christ’s power may rest on me. that is why, for christ’s sake, i delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. for when i am weak, then i am strong.

2corinthians 12:9-10

why must Your power be perfect in weakness God?! WHY!?
Why does this hurt so much… please stop.