NEVER backing down, NEVER quitting

i saw on this dude’s profile… “goin to the bank and then buyin a gun”

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HAHAHAHAHAHAA
WOWWW!! he is SO gangster..

NOT! what a lil ass. why the hell would you buy a gun in tucson!?!
wutever. You do what you want cause you messed up.

man i’ve been having problems tryin to sleep. i think i have insomnia.. GAYYYY!!!

Living in AZ w/ Paul and Scott is real chill. It aint like the dorm times and livin at the other house. We be bored but we still keepin it real ya dig? Haha. I got a TV in my room and lately I’ve been watching Fresh Prince a lot cause of my sleeping habits. That show entertains me like no other!!! ahha i have no life.

so anyways. I got a job as a server at this place called Sushi Garden. I started working last week and I am very disappointed in what it had to offer. During the weekday it is slow as a snail and during the weekend theres a couple of hours where it gets swamped. Compared to Cheesecake Factory that place is a shithole. Everything is so unorganized at the sushi garden. Theres only two computers for 5 servers to punch in orders… and to top it off… an old japanese beezy that works there. AKLSJD:LASJDA SHE ACTS LIKE SHE OWNS THE PLACE. damnn that beezy needs to chill… ALWAYS bossin ppl around and shit. When the rush happeneed that beezy was frickin CHILLIN while me, bk and some other servers were running our asses off to make sure we got every table and every seat at the sushi bar taken care of. SHIEEEEEEEET.

Long story short… i’ma quit soon and work at BJ’s or something. haha

Everytime i go home i realize i love cali and how much i miss it. Funny thing bout that is when i was living in cali for a year i was missing AZ like crazy. Talk about having AZ/CA withdrawls huh.

internet broke down today. it didn’t get fixed till 5 in the morning. sweeeeeeeeeeeeet. I’ve decided to blog on this more in the future. maybe a daily thing? we’ll see how it goes.
FRESH.

I read this off of my friend Ryan’s blog:

“You know that episode of the Simpsons where Bart destroys Lisa’s giant tomato right before the science fair, then Lisa decides to test whether Bart is dumber than a hamster? There’s that one scene where Lisa connects a cupcake to a battery with a little sign warning “DO NOT TOUCH.” Predictably enough, Bart decides to touch. Little guy grabs the cup cake, hoping for a blissful taste of pastry-dom, and he gets shocked. Blinded by the allure of frosting and highly refined sugars, he grabs it again, and again, and again until the experience has left him a traumatized husk of a man, driven to assuming the fetal position and quivering in fear at the mere prospect of touching a cupcake.”
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thats how i am exactly with a lot of things. People tell me things like don’t drink, don’t smoke, don’t date this girl, don’t date that girl, this girl isn’t good for you, you deserve better than her, blah blah blah. and i know its true and all… but for some reason… my dumbass keeps doing the opposite.

You know I cant live life like this anymore
Living everyday for me is a spiritual war
caught up in my pain it drives me insane
Lord but you remind me of your great name

I can’t live my life anymore w/out You
I need Your guidance in my life through and through
I keep doing stupid shit in my life w/out a clue
How can I call myself a follower for You?

But in the end the story is already played
You gave your life for me so that I’d be saved
Laying in the darkness Lord shine down the light
give me the motivation oh so I can fight

I can’t rap about this topic anymore
I don’t know when I’ll give up in this war…

to you two people who couldn’t walk the walk but talked all that you could talk… i am very disappointed in you. two years ago yall come back from college acting all high and mighty saying shit like “we must hold the fort down! we must blah blah blah!” bullshit. 2 years later i find out that yall didn’t even do shit after i left. i used to look up to one of you… but now… i am in disgust.