NEVER backing down, NEVER quitting

Ok.. So I haven’t worked out in 3 weeks due to finals/LA/Family reunion/AZ. I get back and become extremely laaazy. All I do is sleep eat and chat. haha

SOO todayy… I go back to the gym with my mind straight, thinking I gotta reach my peak. I do a quick 2 hour workout, and I walk out thinking to myself “hey… not bad for a 3 week break..” AND RIGHT AFTER I THINK THAT, I puke outside and climb in my car and pass out.

WOW. (more…)

God oh God… guide me.

God I can’t keep living my life like this. I can’t be angry all the time anymore. Lord change me. My heart is broken Father…

Anger:
The only thing that can describe me. Hulk smash Hulk bash. Thats me. Well no more hiding it in the darkness. I’m tired of being that angry person that wants to fight. I’m tired of not forgiving people.

I want to love… but its hard. (more…)

Justin..
R.I.P homie.

You mean everything to me. I wish you came down to Tucson w/ me to meet my new family and friends. I wish I saw you one more time. I had a nice talk on the phone bro.. ahha yes you will always be my best man. You taught me everything I know, and for that I thank you. From that hand circle game to whatever. I owe it all to you homie. I miss you and I will never forget you bro.

All who are thristy
All who are weak
Come to the fountain
Dip you heart in the steam of life
Let the pain and the sorrow
Be washed away
In the waves of His mercy
As deep cries out to deep 

Come Lord Jesus come

Thanks to all those who made my stay here so enjoyable. 4 more days till I leave. hah

I thank God for teaching me so much stuff these past few months. It’s been a trip, but its a good trip. haha. more later..

::SIGH::

it’s that time again. My emo moment. HAHA (more…)

Ok. to clear things up a bit. So this summer has been a prettty crazy summer for me. Startin from July 4th everything started going downhill. But today on Aug. 9th, I totally realized that everything I’m going through has built me into a different much better Jon Yeh. Some won’t see this change, but others will. To share some of the things that I’ve learned and actually used…

1. Trust/Understanding

MMM normally I would split these two into two different topics, but I have a final tomorrow so I’m gonna keep this short. Trust and Understanding. TWO IMPORTANT factors, whether you are in a relationship or a friendship. Trust, is something that is VERY hard to do, but once this factor was taken care of, it made me so much happier. Trusting people has been a very tough thing for me to do. But I’ve learned that in no matter what situation, look at the bright side and always try to give the benifit of the doubt. Don’t get me wrong. It also takes two to tango… MEANING that if the other person isn’t being trustworthy, then screw it. He/She doesn’t deserve your trust. BUT if he/she has proven themselves countless of times, they deserve your trust under any condition.

2. Anger

Anger is something I haven’t shown much to a lot of people. I’ve punched people in the face, punched holes through walls, etc etc… Where has anger got me? No where. Anger led to Jealousy. Jealousy led to no trust. No trust led to more anger. I admit, I’ve gone crazy on a bunch of people, esp. this past year. I apologize to those who I’ve offended or hurt. Please forgive me.

Now yeah I realize that I haven’t really gotten too deep about these topics, and you may be asking yourself, “wtheck. how can i really believe jon has changed?” WELL. the answer to that is. You can’t know. But I know. I’ve tested myself. I’ve climbed out of hell, and jumped straight back in just to see if I would do what I said I would. The result?

100% satisfaction. Now i’m not saying these are TOTALLY out of my life, but they are still stumbling blocks that I have to work on. So yeah. thats it for now. back to studying for finals

wow. i can’t believe how RETARDED ppl can be sometimes.

I was reading this book called “Blue Like Jazz,” and there was this quote that really struck me..
“if we aren’t willing to wake up in the morning and die to ourselves, prehaps we should ask ourselves whether or not we are really following Jesus”

enough said